Dare to Dream Bigger

I woke up 5 mins before I had to leave the house for school today.
… I pretty much went to school with what I slept in, minus the hoodie.

I got to school on time (with some speeding), but my teacher looked at me and laughed. Then he made me sing the llama song in front of the class so I would “wake up.” He requested the llama song because he likes my face expressions when I sing it…. LOOOOOOOOOOOL. …….. I don’t like going to orchestra at 7am.

Then later on my art teacher looked at me and laughed too. She then told me I look the cutest on the days I come to school looking like a bum. “Don’t get me wrong, you look really cute when you dress up, but when you come lookin like that (a bum), you look REALLLLLY cute. HAHaha.” ……….. LOOOOOL, that’s the first time anyone’s ever said that to me.  

At the end of the day my friend and I snuck into the gym to work out. (I felt so BA- LOOOOOOL). After running for 30mins, we went to a self defence class another friend of mine was teaching. I learned a lot of cool moves. TRY TO COME AT ME DAWG! I GOTCHUUU! (;< HAAAH!

Now I will proceed to do some homework. Today was an interesting day. (: LOL.

That’s how I currently feel.

Tear me to pieces, rip me apart, gorge out my heart.

oh, & I want a batch of fresh chocolate chip cookies with some milk please. Thanks.

Believe me, they will be hearing every single thing on my mind- even if it takes up 30 mins and i’m crying in fustration.

… Do you guys really know what church is? What it means to serve? What it means to build up the kingdom of God? To allow your children to grow spiritually and really know God? Because obviously you dont. You’re so narrow minded and just think about yourselves. Start learning to invest for the future. &Put God first.

You guys never listen to what the youth group has to say. But believe me, by the next PTA meeting, you guys will know.

Sometimes love is rebuking to get you to understand what you’re not doing right.
The third week of May- you adults and “leaders” will be showered in my love.

I made spaghetti today (with some help though with the noodles and stirring).

My mom said it tasted good. (:

I’ll make you spahetti. I hope you like meat though, cuz I … accidently? … put in a lot of ground beef…. it was like meatball soup.. (LOL) It was still good though!! ;D

&When we make spaghetti, can you cook the ground beef? I dont like cooking ground beef… it reminds me of brains. -_-; (ew) heh….

Oh, and as for boiled eggs…. you’re on your own on that one. LOL ;; sry. AHAha. <3

I really need to learn wisdom when I speak.
… knowing when to speak, and when not to speak. 
knowing what to share, what not to share, when to share.

I’ve learned that words = water, and I am like a bowl. I don’t want to just share everything and end up emptying out my bowl for nothing… you know?
When God reveals things to you, it doesn’t mean it’s for everyone…

I need wisdom. haha.

I’m happy I’m leaving high school… but I’m sad knowing that many of my friends are going out of state…

I guess I’ve always had a mentality that you guys would always be there… LOL. but it’s really weird realizing that in a few months, I might not see any of you guys for.. years maybe… dang. It makes me really sad, and I wish I could spend time with you guys more. I wish I could have done more for you guys while we still had each other, but now everyone’s so busy with their lives. …gotta make some time though! haha.

I’m kinda scared about going to college… it’s gonna be so different… dorming, classes, new people, responsibility… money. haha.

atleast even though everything else will change- God’ll always remain the same. haha. …….. *sigh.

Is it wrong to ask God for a miracle? … cuz I could really use one right now.

ugh. so annoyed.

Things I’ve been learning in the past two weeks (in a nutshell):

-Grace. Jesus is the personification of grace. It’s an amazing thing.
-What’s really church? Do I go to church, or do I just attend a service? This topic makes me sad…
-The problem is the solution. If your problem is your flesh, then giving up your flesh to God is what’ll save you.
-We’re too comfortable living this “Christian” life.
-Christian cliches and happy “I love Jesus” songs pretty much do nothing for us, unless it is paired with good theology and doctrine. But usually, it’s not (unfortunately).
-Understanding the love of Christ comes from God/ Holy Spirit. It must be the core of your being. You cannot really love if you do not know real love, nahmean`?
-Why I choose to believe the Bible - Voddie Baucham
-The reality behind Jerimiah 29:11. It’s not an individual promise.
-As a Christian, believing in Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior- I am forgiven of my sins in my past, present, and future. To keep asking for forgiveness is… insulting. Confess your sins (helps heal, and helps for you to restore your relationship with God). You don’t have to ask for forgiveness each time because you are already forgiven through the blood of Jesus Christ.

Through youtube videos, tumblr, and my QTs- God’s really been teaching me some awesome things. LOl. Praise God, God is good. I’m excited for more. ;D moremoremore! yaaaaaaay ;D hahahaaa. (:

I hate that I’m indecisive.

Once I begin to regret something, the thought consumes me. It’s ridiculous. I can’t sleep or focus on other things… I just get really eh… moody and sensitive i guess.. ;;

Then I spend all night replaying scenes in my head, but doing things differently this time. … yeah.. like that’s gonna change anything. haha- it’s dumb.

I wish I could let go of things easier.