December 2010
44 posts
Soo's hamster's a pervert.
I feel uncomfortable when I’m changing and I look down to see the hamster staring up at me. You byuntae!! ;o
New Years Resolution?
“My new years resolution is to lose weight!” proclaimed Julia as she sat on her bed eating cheesecake… *sigh.
Personally,
I find it super attractive when guys just look/ act like guys. You know? It’s simple. I dont want you to look in the mirror for an hour getting ready. I dont want you to wear makeup, and I dont want you to look like a girl. I’M the girl in the relationship, kid. If i’d want to hang out with someone who looks pretty like a girl.. i’d call up one of my girlfriends.
Ionno, I...
Sometimes
I get so lost in my past and working towards my future that I forget to live my life in the present.
Live each day like it’s your last because the next day isn’t guranteed and you sure as crap wont be able to change anything from the past. HAHa.
I don’t want to waste anymore of my life not enjoying and being thankful for what’s around me because this time right now will...
A Thought
Perhaps I’m too open and nice to people. Hmm, I wish I could be more… mysterious or something. Yeah. That’d be cool. Mysterious.
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You don’t know who I am. …. or do you?! MUHAHAHAHAa. CUZ I’M MYSTERIOUS! YEEEEEEEEEEE- GET AT ME SONN! >;D
*SIGHHH !
I personally think as a girl- if you can’t cook well, you should atleast know how to cook raymyun really well.
Unfortunatly for me………………… I still have a long ways to go for both. but hey! atleast I can make the perfect egg in my raymyun… so that kinda evens out, right?! (:
…………… *deepsigh. I think i’m such...
“For God so loved the world that he gave his one...
Could you imagine giving up what means to you the most for people who hate you?
Sometimes I don’t think we realize the depth of God’s love- because I know many times I don’t. His love is beyond all understanding, and for that I’m thankful.
The fact that God considers me his child. The fact that God considers me to be worth it for his Son to die for my sins. The fact that...
&Water from a broken well will make you thirst...
“For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want.” - Galatians 5:17
We are constantly in a battle fighting against the desires of our flesh and the desire to be holy. Because we’re basically born into sin- we fight to distinguish between...
Cello
sounds nice with an acoustic. I wish I was better, esp. at improvising, but sall good. Made a video with acoustic and my cello. I hope to add cello more in my future videos on fb. This one was the first- so I kinda messed up, but .. oh well. HAHa.
The More I Seek You + On Fire Medley.
Everyday should be a retreat.
MixedFeelings
Ah- Seriously, this weather always messes up my moods. I don’t feel sad, but I feel bored, lonely, fat, and slightly fustrated. I know what I need to do, but I don’t do it… *sigh. i’m retarted. I can’t wait until I graduate high school so I can be in EM…
I remember 9th or 10th grade me and Christina were at suwannee park by ourselves all day… it was so...
5 years from now...
I wonder what i’d look like, where i’d live, where i’d work, who i’d be with, what i’d be doing with my life, would i even be alive? … I wish I could fast foward my life a little bit— I’m so curious.
Merry Christmas!
Hope everyone has an amazing day! (:
I’ll be home on my warm bed eating yummy cheesecake and reading my old Calvin and Hobbes comic books. (: teehee
Came back from retreat
& it was great. People are nice, loved the worship time- praise, sermon, and prayer. I was blessed.
But. my heart is not content. There is something… something… that leaves me hanging. … Perhaps a lack of faith. I think forgiveness and grace are the hardest concepts to grasp although they are both very straight foward. Fustrating- I know.
A thousand times I’ve failed Still your mercy remains And should I stumble again Still I’m caught in your grace
… I’m still trying to digest all that.
I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned.
Retreat tomorrow
So last minute…. my sister was supposed to tell me so I could go, but she just told me today, the night before. -_-; Mixed feelings because I dont know many people… hope i’m not wangta.. oh well. Retreats aren’t for meeing people anyway, so whatever. I’m a natural introvert by the way, so i’ll manage.
God, would you please move my heart?
Strangely,
when I’m home alone I always seem to eat only 1 meal.
More than halfway through the day I realize that I’ve only eaten once… so I’m like, “screw it, I wont eat at all.” Then as time passes… my stomach starts to growl, but now it’s 8pm… crap- Ima get fat, it’s dark, cold, and scary downstairs. T_____T *sigh.
Monologue
2:37pm- “c’mon, lets be productive julia!”
3:52pm- “uh.. okay, let’s wait until 4 to be productive!”
- - - FALALALALa.
6:30pm- ”….crap…. perhaps tomorrow..” ):
FAIL
I was trying to stay up to watch the lunar eclipse at 2:30, but ended up falling asleep at 2. -__________-;;
gsmst -
-In ninth grade, I never attempted it, but I had quite a few suicidal thoughts.. but I think that was more with everything going on in my life… -In tenth grade, I broke down and cried twice. haha I remember one night I was on gmail talking to a friend then I just started bawling. LOl it was so random. -In eleventh grade, my hair started to fall out. -In twelfth grade, my stomach acid went...
who i am hates who i've been.
I am a contradiction to my own beliefs. Who am I? and what the - is wrong with you?
I guess tonight is just one of those nights. You sure know how to make me feel like - , but… I know I have the power to defeat you… if only my heart wasn’t so chained to her desires. But eventually it will be no more. I promise you that. I promise myself that. But before I go I just wanted to...
Boyz II Men
are the shiz. Nuff said.
Blessed
To have a family that is understanding about my beliefs and believe that I can do what others think impossible.
To know people with the hunger for more- that don’t live their lives thinking of nothing but themselves and how they can feel good, but have a heart to make a difference and do something to build up the world around them for the glory of God.
To have a new pair of awesome awesome...
Prayin For You - Lecrae
Father he needs more of...
I need to pray.
It's Gonna be Worth It All...
Tribulations = Perseverance = New Character = Hope.
God brings us struggles in our lives so that we will ultimately have hope that does not disappoint. Many times we mistake tribulations to the fact that God is punishing us, and we complain asking where He is, and why this is happening to us, but we don’t realize that God is trying to do something good in your life.
It’s not easy to...
CRAP!!
Had over 200 hours of community service signed to turn in tomorrow… but now I cant find them!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! WHERE ARE YOU LITTLE ONES?!?! COME BACK TO MOMMY!! T_______________T
Poop, I need new headphones.
I hate the uneven-ness when sound only comes out of one side… ):
I won't lie...
Sometimes it’s fustrating how nice you are God. It makes me feel really lousy when I think about the person I am and the way I treat you compared to the way you treat me. It’s unfair. And so- i’m sorry. & thank you for putting up with my bull. Your grace is something that i’ll probably never really understand, but I thank you for it. God- take my heart. Change me.
Dear Angelina unnie,
You’re the best. Thanks for surprising me with KFC! haha, I was like.. “whoa„ what is happening…. is that fooood…..?!…… FOR ME?!…………..gasp*”
That’s pretty much what happened in my head. HAHAHAHHAHAaa. I didnt really know how to respond because that’s the first time i think someone’s brought me food like...
I hate being home alone with nothing to eat but...
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i need real food.
"Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin...
Another words: forgive me to the extent I forgive others.
When you pray the Lord’ Prayer, and you’re praying it seriously.. I think a lot of us pray ourselves to hell.
Forgive because you’ve been forgiven. What makes you so much better than anyone else? We all have our own flaws.
When you meet a person who has wronged you, and you forgive them, but everytime you guys meet, all...
How Street Lights Work
There is a magnetic field below the road and that determines when the lights change… because your car is metal… (: cool, right? If you look near an intersection, the metal box thing you see is the control panel. If a street light seems to be a little broken, try moving your car foward or backwards a little to try and shift the magnetic .. force.. or something. HAHAa.
I used to think...
IT'S TOO COLD!
I did not move down south to be living in 30 degrees weather. -__- ;
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Anyways.. God always provides.
Today I had no lunch money. But I didn’t want to ask my mom to give me more money because.. you know.. we’re all struggling, haha- so I was going to save my breakfast sandwich for lunch.. I won’t lie.. I was a little sad and worried about how hungry i’d...
Be kind to everyone,
because you don’t know what kind of battle they’re fighting.
#14
I have 3 light switches next to the stairs… one would think after 9 years of living in the same house i’d know which switch turns on which light by now……. but i dont. -_____-;; HAHAa.
This week went by so fast.
I wish to write something intellligent and deep. But it’s not coming to me. So perhaps later when the time is right. (: BAHAHAHHAHAAa.
Abortive Attempt #2
I should be studying for math test tomorrow, but I dont want too! I see all these amazing people get into awesome schoools with free rides and everything and i’m so happy for them. but… I wonder .. I hope I get accepted to college too… and ima need that full ride.. haha.
I wonder how many opportunites I missed because of ionno, my lazyness? Or i wonder if they weren’t for...
I dont like wearing closed toed shoes.
They suffocate my feet. All they want is to be free„, why can’t you see?! ):
..HAHAHHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAa. okay. i’m done. sorry.
Yes! I'm not dead. HAHAHHAHAA.
Finished editing my 20 page paper, finished 2 college apps, currently finishing my 3rd college app, and studying for math test tomorrow!
I think this sickness makes me a little loopy.. but i guess that’s better than being all dead and stuff (:
& i really must do something about my dark circles. Perhaps I’ll sleep more than 4 hrs today. hoooray!
